谢谢你们．．．

最后一天了...
今天是我最后一天上班，
突然觉得有点不舍得...
整整一个星期，
我几乎每天都跟朋友聚在一起...
这几天虽然很累，
但是却很充实。
感觉上好像回到了从前还在求学的生涯，
每天下课过后都跟朋友聚在一起做功课或是出门逛街...
真的很谢谢你们在我离开这里之前陪着我...
留给了我一段美好的回忆。
云洁、慧妮、志伦、健彬、维航、Smith、Joseph 。
谢谢你们...
今天老板还买了蛋糕请我吃，
说是提早帮我庆生。
真的很感动...
这段在这里上班的日子我学到了很多东西...
Shirley,Jayce,Chris,Tommy,Alex....
谢谢你们...
不懂得如何开口跟你们当面说谢谢，
只好像缩头乌龟一样，
在这里跟你们道谢...
我会在这里默默祝福你们...

再见．．．

终于下定了决心，
要离开这座繁忙的城市－吉隆坡．．．
心里莫名的惆怅起来，
真的觉得有点依依不舍的。
回想起当初．．．
被家人强迫到这里来继续读书，
不知不觉就在这里呆了超过三年。
由当初刚来到这里的不习惯．．．
到现在渐渐适应了这里的环境与生活习惯．．．
无可否认的，
吉隆坡这个首都的生活是多姿多彩的．．．
不仅是美食天堂．．．
更是购物天堂．．．
而且还有许许多多的名胜旅游景点。
可唯一的坏处就是，
在这里生活必须永远都跟时间赛跑，
就连我睡觉都睡得很不安稳．．．
但是我还是得承认，
这里也充满了很多回忆．．．
在这里认识了很多新的朋友；
在拉曼学院上课认识的；
在拉曼学院上课外活动认识的；
在拉曼学院宿舍认识的；
在导游学院认识的；
在等成绩时打工认识的；
在工作地点认识的；
朋有介绍他的朋友认识的；
朋友的室友、屋友或另一半；
结交了不少的朋友。
在这里也学到不少的东西．．．
学会如何乘搭交通工具；
学会如何自己独立生活；
学会如何妥善的处理人际关系；
学会如何体验生活；
学会了很多我以前想都没想过的。
也从这里出发到不同的地点游玩．．．
从这里出发到吉兰丹；
从这里出发到马六甲；
从这里出发到柔佛；
从这里出发到砂拉越；
从这里出发到热浪岛；
从这里出发到刁曼岛；
从这里出发到云顶高原；
从这里出发到国家公园；
从这里出发到武吉丁宜法国村；
从这里出发到雪兰莪与吉隆坡的各个旅游景点；
这一切的一切都将会成为我最美好的回忆．．．
现在我又得离开这里，
然后搬到另一个城市去了．．．
槟城－一个我熟悉又陌生的城市，
它距离我的家乡车程只需要大约１小时就可以到达。
与吉隆坡相交之下，
那可就近得多了～
别了－吉隆坡．．．
我会再回来的～

她的生日

今天上班又迟到了
明明很早就睡醒了
但是就是不愿意从温暖的被窝里钻出来
就是有赖床的习惯
总是要赖到上班前十五分钟才心不甘情不愿的起床
是时候改一改了
从昨天到现在
心情都一直处于低落的状态
昨天是她的生日
一个应该是跟我有着最亲密关系的人
一个应该是陪在我身边看着我长大的人
一个应该是养育我长大的人
但这些她都不曾做过
她做的就只有抛下亲生儿女
独自跑到国外去过自己的生活
甚至还改嫁了
这么多年来
她曾经花了多少时间想起在这里的我们？
我很好奇
或许从来都没有
为什么会有这么狠的人?
连亲生骨肉都可以弃之不顾
那么多年来
对儿女不闻不问
就因为她的自私
说什么无法面对
那都是借口
逃避责任的借口
她造成了我的心理不平衡
她造成了我对她的恨
我无法原谅她
别人都劝说 : 她始终是你的母亲
但是谁能了解我的苦处？
一个明明有母亲的小孩
为什么会那么渴望母爱?
我真的做不到原谅她
对我来说她 —— 那个所谓的母亲
只是一个有着血缘关系的陌生人
不!!!
是连陌生人都不如
走在街上碰面了我也不会打招呼的那种
可笑的是我竟然还会牢记得她的生日
可笑的是我竟然还到她的facebook去祝她生日快乐
就算多么的不想记得
但是就是无法忘记
无可否认的在我的潜意识里我渴望母爱
但是我也明白不可能了

我不再是当初的那个黄毛小丫头

我今年20岁了
就算她要弥补也来不及了
更何况她应该也没有想过要弥补吧
所以最好还是让一切归零
从新回到没有交集的过去吧
反正我早就习惯也认命的接受没有她的世界

回乡

好几个月都没有回家乡了，
很怀念家乡的一切。
怀念儿时的趣事；
怀念那里的食物；
怀念曾经在那里度过的时光。
从小在乡村长大的我。。。
对乡村有一种说不出的亲切感，
喜欢它的宁静；
喜欢它的恬静；
喜欢它的悠闲；
喜欢它的新鲜空气；
喜欢早晨听到鸡啼声而从睡梦中醒过来；
更喜欢这里人们的友善。。。
早在两年前离乡背井来到吉隆坡这个大城市，
由陌生到熟悉。。。
也渐渐的适应这里忙碌的生活。
在这里时间永远都不够用，
每一天都必须与时间赛跑，
恨不得能将一天24小时变成48小时，甚至更多。。。
这里有的是喧闹声；
这里有的是车辆此起彼落的鸣笛声；
这里有的是无形的压力；
这里有的是受污染的空气；
这里有的是让你看尽人情冷暖。。。
怀念以前的童年时光，
可以无忧无虑的穿梭在乡间，
玩捉迷藏、跳绳、到河边去捉鱼。。。
这些都是童年美好的回忆。
在那里，
到处都可以看见一片片绿油油的稻田、椰林、菜园、果园和各种花草树木，
这种大自然的景色是多么的迷人。。。
可惜，
在这大城市里就犹如身处在一座钢骨水泥森林，
四周围都林立着一幢又一幢的大厦。。。
想要呼吸新鲜空气都有点困难。
所以我的家乡，
我回来看望你啦~

感触

刚刚浏览了一位朋友的部落格，
在看了她的心情故事之后。。。
觉得我们的人生不如意的事情还真的不少。。。
无论是在面对生活、感情、友谊、工作、学业或者是家庭。。。
都免不了会遇上一些挫折。
对于那一些堪称幸运的人，
他们的生活都是风平浪静的，没有经历过任何挫折的。。。
这想必都是大家梦寐以求的生活。
但是对于那一些时常遭受挫折、遇到难题的人，
他们必须时时刻刻想着该如何解决问题、如何度过难关等等。
也因为这样，
俗语说：“越挫越勇”，
所以这些人一般上都会比较坚强。
在遇到棘手的问题时，临危不乱就是他们的应对方式。
没有经过日晒雨淋，幼苗又怎么能茁壮的成长呢？
所以朋友，
要选择当温室里的柔弱小花 ，还是生命力顽强并经得起风霜的小草，
完全取决于你自己。
就如你所说的，
“要么你去驾驭生命，要么生命驾驭你。你的心态决定谁是坐骑，谁是骑师？”
不要让任何人扰乱你的思绪，
不要让任何人牵着你的鼻子走。
你是属于你自己的，
你该做回你自己的主人。
你是你自己的作者，
又何必编写那么难演的剧本呢？
当你觉得累了、倦了、喘不过气了。。。
不妨停下你的脚步，
仔细的欣赏周遭的人、事、物，
你会发现其实你已经比别人来的幸运。
所以不要再自怨自艾。。。
不要再怨天尤人。。。
珍惜你现在所拥有的，
要知道人生是无常的。
只有学会放开，
你才能找回你自己。
生命应该是精彩的、彩色的，
不要让你的人生留下空白、也不要让你的人生染上一层暗淡的灰色。。。
朋友。。。
当你遇到难题时，如果你停止不向前的话，
那你就只能任由难题把你吞噬；
如果你没有停下脚步，反而积极的大步往前走，
那么难题就只能任由你踩在脚底下。
朋友。。。
勇敢的去面对一切吧，
不要害怕，
不要恐慌，
不要畏惧，
更不要逃避！
当你走在街上遇到他，
你不会有：“我想要逃！”、“我好想找个地洞钻进去！” 等等的念头，
那么你就成功了。
不要再怨他对不起你；
不要再怨他背叛你；
他没有错，你也没有错。
只有爱与不爱。
当他说爱你的时候，他是真的爱你的；
当他说不爱你的时候，他是真的不爱你了。
所以别再回头，
也别再胡思乱想了。
没有人会强迫你把这段回忆永远的忘掉。。。
你可以偷偷的把它深藏在你心中的某一个小角落，
偶尔可以拿出来缅怀一番，
但是不要让你自己深陷在这段回忆里，无法自拔。
我也曾经经历过，
所以我明白你的感受。
现在的我已经能够以平常心来对待他。。。
所以我希望你也跟我一样。
也许你现在需要的是时间，
你需要时间来疗伤。。。
你需要时间来平复。。。
你需要时间来整顿你自己。。。
但是答应你自己不要沉醉在这段回忆里太久，
你没有太多的青春可以浪费。。。
所以朋友，
我可以做得到，
相信你也一定可以。。
甚至做得比我更好。
记得我们常说的：“ Be strong & Be Tough！”
朋友，加油！
让你的每一天都过的更精彩！
不要留下任何的遗憾。

Friends

There is a lot people asked me...

"Friendship important to you?"

And my answer is : "Ya ! If i got no friend , I wont be here today . Friendship is very important for me."

When i am down , i need friends to be there for me...

When i am happy , i need friends to shared with...

When i am facing some difficulties , i need friends to give me an suggestions...

When i am sad , i need friends to cry with...

Thats is why friends is very important for me.

There is few friends are occupy an uncountable weight in my heart.



Yin Chun

He is my soul mate No.1.

Everyone said that he is very handsome.

And i agree with that.

I use to call him Joi Joi.

I know him since we are in primary school.

He is the one who sit beside me.

We were 7 years old on that time.

Now we are 20 years old.

13 years friendship...

I believe we will keep it never end.

He is always stay by my side and console me patiently.

We go through a lot difficulties on our life.

For me,he is not just a friend,but more than that.

I love him so much.


Bee Ling


This one is my soul mate No.2.

She is a cute girl.

Her brain full of imaginative.

She is here with me at KL.

But soon she is going to leave me..

Sad a..

But i still have to say congratulation to her because she is going to graduate.

And she is going to leave me..

NO~~~

But i couldn't say anything.

That is her future.

She have to grab it.

Oh ya,

Her bf is so far away with her.

I can understand her feeling.

Because now i am facing this problem also.

Lets bear for few years.

We can do it.

Anyway, i love her too.



Jin Jin


She is my soul mate No.3.
She is a crazy girl like me.
(dun angry ya if you see this)
She is the most optimistic girl i met.

She feel happy every time.

Feel comfortable when i talk to her.

When you talk a nonsense or a joke to her,

she will laugh like hell.

This is Jin Jin.

For sure, i spend a lot of time with her as well.

I mean when we are in secondary school.

* I feel happy for her after i knew she is falling in love with someone..
Seriously,i wish her life full of happiness.

Love ya.


Ming Hooi

This girl is my soul mate No.4.

She is a pretty girl for no doubt.

Can u imagine that she is our secondary school's head prefect for year 2006?

She look like very soft right?

Haha...

Ya....

But...

It is just for after her school.

When she is carry out the task as a head prefect,

She will show a very serious face.

She had performed a very good example to our junior.

Well done.

Although i am not spending too much time with her,

But it is good enough for us to maintain our friendship.

Glad to know her.

And ya,

She is just done her study for Diploma.

Guess she will continue her Degree in UTAR ,Kampar.

I wish you all the best.

Not forgotten to tell her,

I love her too.



Pei Fen

She is my soul mate No.5.

We like to called her Cimba.
I used to spend time with her at my hometown KFC.
If i am not mistaken,

she likes to eat fun fries,
(like a kid..LoL)
Aha,
I just recall something.

She drink Pepsi is freaking fast,

When i asked why she drink so fast,

The reason she gave me is always the same.

"I am very thirsty.."

What??

She was drank the large size Pepsi,

And she can finished it in 10 minutes...

Horrible la..

I think i should call her "water tank".

Now she is studying Nursing course at Master Skill College ,

Wish you all the best first.

And seriously i miss her craziness.

She is nothing but joyful,

I love her so much.


Hong Yi



This guy is my soul mate No.6.

He is younger than me a year.

But he straight away jump to Standard 5 after the PTS examination.

Cool right?

Haha..

Anyway,

this is not the focal point.

He is my classmate for F4 & F5 in secondary school.

This guy hor....

very perceptual..

When he feel touching,

he will straight away cry.

blur@.@"

And one more thing,

The way he talk is very directly.

Just because of his personality,

It can avoid any misunderstanding.

That is why i like him so much.

He is going to continue his Advanced Diploma at KTAR,

so i got chances to stick with him.

My lover,

Love ya...



Julia Hoo


Soul mate No.7.

I love her so much.

She is a pure banana which is mean she is a chinese but don't know how to speak mandarin.

Swt-.-"

I know her when i am studied in Tarc.

I stay in Tarc hostel with her,

and ya..

we are at the same block.

But she is so unlucky,

she is at the top floor.

Haha..

I miss the time we are together in hostel.

Everynight "lepak" around the hostel.

I miss the time we are talking nonsense and keep laughing non-stop.

Hope to meet her soon.

*I miss you babe.



Tabby



She is my soul mate No.8.

She is sexy babe.

LoL..

She is Chinese + Indian = Chindian

She is even better than Julia,

At least she can understand mandarin although she cant speak.

I always laugh at her:

" You are always stick with the word - SMALL !"

Then she will said:

" I am not small !"

She is my Ex- course mate in Tarc.

Soon she will be my roommate.

Haha.

Cant wait to stay with you at outside.

*I will continue tempting you to BUY LA BUY LA...

Love ya.



Sarah Yeoh



She is my soul mate No.9.

She is my Ex-course mate too.

They like to called her Sarah Banana.

Because she don't know mandarin also.

But at least she can write her Chinese name and speak a little bit.

Well,this is good enough for her.

And i used to speak Cantonese with her.

She is very awesome.

She learn her Cantonese by watching Astro TVB.

Cool girl~~

She scare people to touch her.

So sensitive,

once you touch her,

she will scream or laugh very loudly.

Haha.

That's why we love to disturb her.

She is going to continue her Degree at UTAR,Kampar.

Wish you all the best ya.

*Do come and visit me when u are back to Subang.

Love you.



Eason Cheah



He is the last one.

Why?

Because he is my dear.

We are being together for almost 2 year.

This is not a short period.

We had go through a lot of things.

Although we will quarrel for something nonsense,

But I LOVE YOU.

And i knew u are same with me.

Hope our relationship will keep never end.

Now you are at JB,

so far away from me,

i miss you.
*I am waiting for you to come back here.

Tagged BY Gary

Name - Tracy
Sister - 0
Brothers - only 1
Shoe size - 5 (sometimes 4)...swt "
Where do u live - KL PJ area (temporary)
Favourite drinks - Fresh Fruit Juices
Favourite breakfast - Haha...seldom take breakfast...(so unhealthy rite?)
Have you been on the plane - Only once (Air Asia only) sob**
Swam in the ocean - Of course not...(dun dare)
Broken someone's heart - Think so...(Sorry -.-)
Fallen asleep in school - Always...(depends on which subject)
Fell of your chair - Yup...(someone frame me up)hng~!!
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call - Yes...(but someone dun know bout it)
Saved e-mails - For sure...(i never delete)
What is your room like - A single bed , a cupboard , a table, a chair , & some little stuff...
What is the last thing you ate - Vegetarian food (believe it or not)

EVER HAD

Chicken pox - Think so...(when i m still a little baby)
Stitches - Never
Broken nose - Never
Do you believe in love at first sight - Not reali...
Who was the last person you danced with - Yin Chun ( My dear) Kiddin...
Last person who made you smile - Of course my lovely dear...

TODAY DID YOU

Talked to someone you like - Yes..i did...(since early in the morning)
Kissed anyone - Nope...(He is too far away)
get sick - Nope...(i m healthy baby)
Talked to an ex - Nope
Missing someone - Yes...miss u alots..
Best feeling in the world - I m not alone
Do you sleep with stuffed animals - Nope
what's under your bed - Nothing
What is the time now - 3:27pm (i m in the office now)Damn~~

RANDOM

Is there a person on your mind right now - Of course..(my darling)
Do you want children - Exactly i wan...(i like Kids)weee~~~
Do you smile often - Yup..(depends on i m facing to who?)
What colour shirt are you wearing now - Dark Blue..(My company T-shirt)
When did you cry last - Hmm...Last nite..(reading a novel)
Are you a friendly person - Think so...(somebody said i m a crazy girl)
Where is the person you have feelings for right now - At Jb...
Do you eat healthy - Recently yes....(i ate vegetarian this few days)
Do you still have pictures with you and your ex - Sure..i keep it..(it's my memory)
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you - Yes i did
If you're having a bad day , who are you most likely to go to - My best sista (bee leng , julia , tabby , sarah , yin chun as well)
Are you loud or quiet most of the time - Tak tentu..(dats y somebody called me crazy girl)
Are you confident - Sometimes...

5 SNACKS I ENJOY

1 . Potato Chips
2 . Rojak at Genting Klang
3 . Muazhi at Petaling Street
4 . Chicken Chop at SHILIN
5 . Curry Fish Ball at Plaza Low Yat

5 Person I have to tag

1 . Eason Cheah
2 . Julia Hoo
3 . Amirul Paul
4 . Patrick Teh
5 . Sarah Yeoh

难题

好久好久都没上来了。。。
不知道为什么，半夜里突然醒过来。。
糊里糊涂的就摸上这儿来。。。

糊里糊涂的就在键盘上敲打一番。。。

糊里糊涂的就写下了这一篇连我都不知道算是什么的文章。。。
最近这几天的天气特别炎热。。。
连一向来最怕冷的我上云顶高原都没穿寒衣。。。
可以想象山下城市的天气有多闷热。
就连现在也热得进入不了梦乡。。。
这几天过得很平淡但很充实，帮我的他度过他的20岁生日。。。
他跟我一样迈入了二字头。。= 老了！
12岁- 开始织梦，幻想着有一段纯纯的恋情（puppy love）。。。
14岁- 开始叛逆，家人说往东，我偏要向西。。。
而如今，叛逆，织梦的年龄早就在我每一天与朋友的笑闹声中溜走了。。
现在20岁啦~
也意味着我得踏入我人生中另一个全新的旅程了。。
但我对这个全新的旅程一无所知。。。
在课业上我已经毕业了。。。（我念导游执照科系）
导游执照我也领了。。。
家人也催促我赶紧找一份正当职业。。。
但是这谈何容易呢？
如今适逢金融风暴，经济逐渐趋向斜坡。。。
要找一份工作真的并不简单，
但是家人并不谅解我，认为我懒，不肯去找工作。。。
面对家人的不谅解。。。我真的~无言。。。而且也很无奈。

unknown future....

Where is my future?
I don't know....
I don't know where am i belongs to....
I don't know how to make a good decision....
I don't even know how to manage my life....
My life full of DON'T KNOW....
When only i will start say : I KNOW...!!!? I still don't know...
Nobody can help me....
I m really breathless....
Who is going to pull me out from this dark abyss?
God...help me please~~~